Well, I am happy to report that my bike is back, and that it’s in working condition. I, on the other hand, still need some work. I’ve been struggling lately with accepting where I’m at physically.
As my husband and I bought a house in the area I grew up in, the streets we bike through are the streets I biked through as a little girl. But my abilities have been lessened, due to the knee injury. Sure, my knee is getting stronger. I can tell. But it’s taking awhile. And on top of that, I’m definitely not in shape like I was back then, because the injury really lessened my work-out abilities.
And I’ve come to realize that I have a problem with this little thing called pride. The other day, we had to tack on an extra 2 miles to our bikeride, because I refused to walk up the large hill leading to our house. From the bottom of the hill, we were probably about a half mile from our home. But I knew I couldn’t bike up that steep hill without my knee giving out. So I talked my husband into taking a long loop, just so no one would see me walking with my bike.
I mean, how humiliating would that be, right??
Yeah, pride. I’ve got some.
So that I don’t get frustrated and quit exercising (or run over my bike with the car), I’ve been trying to find some good in the situation. Because if you look hard enough, there always is something positive. And I’ve realized that I’m not as bad as I keep making myself out to be. I have two strong legs that I can walk with, and I feel healthy. So I should be happy with where I am, rather than angry at myself for not being able to do certain things. That said, I should embrace the challenge of moving forward and becoming stronger. That hill shouldn’t be my enemy as much as it should be my goal.
And I shouldn’t be ashamed of where I am, as much as I should use it for good. I can encourage other people who also will struggle when they first work out. And — trust me — I’ll understand where they’re coming from when they say it’s hard.
So quitting will not be an option for me. And I will one day bike up that hill!