I think that I’m in some sort of supersonic-speed mode and so I’m able to function when it comes to all the work I need to do… but communication has sort of fell by the way-side. Nate and I went for a drive last night, and I barely said a thing. He kept looking at me, obviously concerned that I was upset and so therefore giving him the silent treatment.
So every time he turned to look, I’d give him a wide smile. And then he’d focus on the road again, and my face would slump back into a dazed stare.
So exhausted. Too busy. Just wanting a moment of rest and quiet.
Oh, yes, haven’t we been here before?
This Saturday is my best friend’s bridal shower, and I have to prepare cold soup and breads to serve 70, in addition to all the planning that is finally reaching it’s end. On top of that, I’m working over-time at the office. And then there’s just everything else.
To ask me to communicate as well is just too much…
And then I realize that I’m hurting nothing but myself. And maybe the hubby. And maybe my marriage.
Yeah, communication is kind of important to a relationship. As is having fun.
Planning my best friend’s shower has brought back many fun memories of the engaged versions of me and Nate. This is a pic taken on the morning of my wedding shower. We look like kids. Nate was skinnier. My hair was curlier. We were so in love.
We’re still so in love, but I think we’ve settled into the realization that adult life is busy. And because we’re married, our dates are fewer in between, so the fun memories we make together are cut a bit short.
I’m realizing more and more that we need to make each day count. Even if it’s just putting in one of our favorite cd’s as we do the dishes together. We have to make time. We have to talk, and make plans, and share dreams, and just laugh together. We have to put our relationship first!
But let me tell you, fighting past the craziness won’t be easy. But I think a love like ours is worth it! 🙂
So, yeah, I’ve written blogs like this before about how busy we are and about our daily struggle to make sure we have time for each other. This might not even be our last. Hey, we’re still kind of new at this marriage thing. 🙂 But we’ll get there… It is just a learning process and it’s something that we get to learn together.
Do you have a hard time balancing relationships with how busy you are?